It has been quite some time since I have had the head space to be able to sit down and write. The number of things going on in my personal life right now is so overwhelming in so many good ways, but some discouraging moments. But they are just moments. I am praying and declaring in the name of Jesus, that they remain moments and not grow roots.
So where do I start?
Seriously… I have no idea where to start. This was always my struggle in writing papers for school. There is so much to say, but then I have to remember that you’re not in my mind while reading this. Oh yeah and it is super hard to portray emotion threw writing. I hope this helps you see not what God is doing in my mind, but in my heart and in my family over the past weeks.
Starting with our home and everything going on there is simply the most miraculous display of God’s invisible qualities (Romans 1:20) right in front of my eyes. Each time I go over to our home, I am struck with such aw and amazement at what God is doing. There are so many moments that I stand in the center of our home or mowing our lawn and I just stop and think, “I don’t deserve this. I don’t deserve these things taking place at my home right now.” That thought in itself isn’t wrong. I deserve punishment because I am a sinner and “the wages of sin is death” (Romans 6:23), not restoration and salvation. I know what I deserve. That is why every time I think about our home, I am extremely humbled and overwhelmed at what God is doing.
I will start off by saying that the next transition of events may feel like a jumbled mess. It’s because I have almost lost track of all that is being done because of the enormity of it all. God is BIG yall!
About 7 weeks ago we were notified that Samaritans Purse would be repairing our home and bringing it back to the condition it was in the beginning, so that we could move back into the house. That was seriously only the beginning of what follows.
About 2 days into the repairs on our home with Samaritans Purse, they looked at the addition that was made to the house in 1978 and it was irreparable. Their recommendation would be to call an engineering inspector out to look at it and advise my mortgage company on their feedback. I did just that. The engineer said, “This structure is not livable”. Well… ok. There goes 440 sqft. of the home we purchased. Those were my initial thoughts and it is tough watching. In these thoughts I remember what God convicted me of in the beginning, “Do this the right way. Whatever it takes, do it right.”, and I committed right then and there to do so. Tearing down this addition is the right thing to do. Wise counsel says so and it’s the right thing, so let’s do it. This is God’s provision.
Then about a week later, Samaritans Purse notifies us that they wouldn’t be working on our house until we had the go ahead to tear it down from my lender. During this time, I became anxious and I wanted the work to continue so bad! Then remembering a scripture that is implanted in my mind, in Philippians 4:6-7 “6 Don’t worry about anything, but in everything, through prayer and petition with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.” This is what I must do. I must pray about everything. Not just by myself but with my wife. So that is what we did.
I tell you what we had a hard time with this and it really drove us to spend quality time in prayer with one another. Each night before we went to bed, we would pray together about the things that we could and couldn’t control in our lives. The work at our house resumed the following week.
I know! Amazing right?
Then I get a call from a friend at Crosspoint and he works for a large electrical company and tells me that he wants to talk to me about our electrical at our home. In our conversation he asks, “Do you have anyone helping you do the wiring?”, to which I responded with, “Myself and friend who works for you guys were going to do it all.” He then followed back up with, “Well let me get the list of materials you need, we will order them, and then I will send a couple of guys out there to do the work.” I then I didn’t really know what to say but, “Thank you.”. I was not expecting that at all, but that is who God is. He provides in ways that we don’t ever think.
In no time the electricians come out to my home that following Monday and start doing their thing. Seriously don’t deserve this. These guys are awesome!
Then my wife and I had gotten counsel from multiple other home owners and construction supervisors to re-pipe our house if we can afford it while our walls are open. Gretchen and I had discussed and figured we would get quotes and figure out a affordable budget for this task. So, I met a plumber at our home and he gives me a proposal for $8500 to re-pipe our home. WHAT?! I haven’t personally ever spent that much on a CAR! A CAR. But I get it, because it’s a lot of work. I just wasn’t expecting that at all…
So while I was waiting for the plumber to give the paperwork, the Holy Spirit was nudging me (not physically moving me but bringing these people I hadn’t thought of previously) to call these three people. So, I did. I called person number one and they said, “Oh yeah. That is a fair price I would say.” Well that’s not necessarily what I was wanting to hear. Then I called person two and he said, “I can definitely do it for less and take good care of you.”. I got off the phone and thought “I don’t need to call person three. I got a lower price.”, but I called them anyways. When I did, he directed me to a local plumbing company and the owner said he would meet me at the house that next day to look over everything. So, we met up the next day and he said I would hear from him soon. The next day I called him to follow up with him (because I was anxious to know the cost) and he responded with something along the lines of “We would like to gift this to you and your family.” I haven’t been at loss for words like that in a LONG time. If you know me, I am not short on words. I believe my response was something like “Wait… what?”
He then continued to tell me that he and his wife had prayed about it and they knew that God was asking them to be obedient in doing this, and I didn’t have to say thank you. Knowing that he and his wife were being obedient was good enough. REALLY? Thank you, Jesus! I am terrible at saying thank you… I don’t know exactly why but I am.
I then sat in my truck and just wept. And wept.
I said out loud just me and Jesus, “HOW?!?!? God you never stop do you!?!?”. I know the answer to that question. He never stops.
Philippians 4:19 “And my God will supply all your needs according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” God provides all of our needs according to HIS riches in glory in Christ Jesus, not ours. God’s glory never ends, so neither will his provision.
The week I was worried about work not being done, work was being done in the spiritual realms where I cannot see. Gretchen and I have pursued Jesus regularly in scripture and through prayer, asking boldly in the name of Jesus and now we see the evidence of our prayer. Not what we expected or how we would’ve done it. It’s better.
Our home has been re-wired, is being re-piped, and rebuilt, at the complete provision of God.
If I wasn’t sensitive to what God was teaching me daily and how he was moving in my life, I don’t believe I would’ve called all three people. BUT, when we do HE grants us understanding that surpasses all understanding. Amen?
God works ALL the time, ALL day, EVERY day. You, me, I, we cannot stop it. He provides. PERIOD.
This is only the beginning of what God is doing in our journey walking with Jesus. I know that there is more. Not because I deserve it, but because is the ultimate provider. I believe just as he provided salvation through his Son Jesus Christ, he will continue to provide even the smallest need in our eyes.
One last thing: In the moments when you feel like God is not working, don’t believe that lie. Believe this truth. That God provides for you. ALL DAY. EVERY DAY. Whether we recognize it and are willing to recognize HIS provision pivots on whether or not we are able to recognize HIS invisible qualities and character. Do I know God? Not as well I want to, but I will one day.
My pursuit for Jesus through life continues.